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In the foothills
of the Sierra Madre
I resided for
one month
in contemplation
of my situation.
But I was getting
drunk and so
I didn't come
up with anything
except a headache.

Rucksack telling
me where I'm
going, yeah where
I'll walk or
move some hiway
what I do or
die by please
father, please
mother,
where should I be?
--there's nothing but
the hiway, and a
motion up the road
(and she promised
always to be there,
the road)
When road ends and
cornfield begins,
nothing,
lack of road,
goodnight.

What desire wasn't
sufficed by you
curling there darkly
in that fabled room.
What desire there as
you stretched legs?
Enough to disgust
perchance and it
would seem I, too,
have had enough.
What of those who
have had enough?
Love and the lost
moon of our skies
remember softly those
nights I was folded
and spoken for though
I was an exploding star
and blew to bits.

She said what of
it, yr. sorrowful
art, selling your
sadness is cheap
and a waste
--Oh if only you knew
the rest of it,
that I'm cursed
as my fate
clambered after
her and fell up
a mountain
reaching the peak
where then my
brain began to leak.

I am ghost

rider and

living my own

fate in the

presence of so

much hate

Remember me

for what I've done

running before

the bullet shot

from the gun

I am gone

Streets of Portland

Lonely sophist

Dining at the Roxy

Staying at the Kent Hotel

on Stark and SW 11th

Where bums fall

Into bottles of port

And poets tiredly

Remember their pasts

Shunning their contemporaries.

Remain anonymous at

The Kent Hotel, all in

The shadow of the city

Where poets mourn tiredly

The hour of my death,

Portland is passing like

The sinews of so many

Cities, streets and avenues

Sinking back into earth

Among shattered wine

Bottles and confused

Notes from lovers, old

Shopping lists the

Products of which we

Are.

I in my claw-footed

Tub, I peering over the

Fire escape, or over

The Roxy's counter

Cast into the lines

Of city streets and

Faces, enough to

Kill 1,000 pigeons.

Tonight I saw my
Life depart me in
Some form of death
And I wavered, and
I thought fast to
Save my body, so
incredulous I almost did nothing,
Oh road.

Tonight of all nights when
I have been talking or
Trying to prove something
Sink away
Heart stone
And the death meant for me.

I’d walk out on the ridge
Oh my boots toppled, aching
Miles—I stopped for a
Song on the cusp of a
Moment, that rock will
Cover me, these trees
Will bite me without
Retreat
Wouldn’t I go falling
Ripened cask liquor
Defeat
Wouldn’t I be
Leaving no banjo
Walking no street

Old world

Ghost world

Light up my

Life in death

And ratio elimination

Of effervescent pillars

And the aggregate

Matter

Spinning and

What's the world

Matter?

What's the questioner

After, or what is

His feeling behind

The question mark,

What the symbol

Refers to.

Write this morning on this plane of
Paper, this apartheid existence
Semblance of meaning
Blaming its resemblance
To solimblince, palimbliss
Olimbliss, all of this
Ant seed
My gope and ant seed
Sole slope ant
For something other than that
--for something other than that!

Forensic asleep ant
And right lanes will extricate
Decoupage ambulate out
The door cutting the outside
And in these parts are two
Compartments: one of sky and one of
Wood
Oh compartments
Never ever want to hear
A lever never actuates near
The origin of the load
Which ambulates
Ant
ambulates

I write this solitary song

yes, all of the creation myths

they are intact

I walked up that line of road

once before but then turned back

yes, all the myths are crashed in

the weeds on the side of the road

but they are intact

and all of yr. needs are

the lake that I sink into